whoops!

Well, yesterday was not a good day for me. I mean, it started out really good. I got up and made French (Women don't get fat) toast, which is *really* good btw, 
I packed the leftover portion of the Ranch Style Pork Chops & Potatoes for lunch and set off off to work. 

I don't know why but when 10am rolled around, of course I was hungry, and I should have pulled some carrots out of the fridge. Instead I pulled the pork chop out and ate that instead. And, of course, by the time 12 rolled around, I was hungry again but I had no lunch left. So then I decided to go get some carrots (back asswards, I know) not even 30 minutes later, I was hungry again. So I ate my favorite thing, a tortilla w. cream cheese and spinach. about an hour after that I went and got some schwan's mini pizzas. Thought, hey, I can work out a little extra tonight to make up for it. Well by the time I got off of work, I was famished again. I had to go fill up my car so I grabbed a bag of lays potato chips. My house is 10 minutes away from the store. And by the time I got there the bag was empty. whoops. 

Supper wasn't that bad for me.. I had an Oscar Mayer deli creations sandwich. That filled me up and I didn't eat again, but I also didn't get off the couch to get on the treadmill or the elliptical. I stayed on my computer and played on facebook. by the time 9pm rolled around I was so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open so I just went to bed. 

I hate that I did that.. I ate a good deal over my allowed calories, but its like I reverted back to my old self with the 'I don't wannas'. I hate that, because I *do* want to lose this weight, I *do* want to make changes. Yesterday was like I had a black hole in my stomach and nothing would please me. All because I ate my lunch early. grrrrr. 

Today tho, I got up with the thought in my mind that it's a new day. Who cares what I did yesterday, and it's gone really good so far. I haven't eaten anything I shouldn't. Even when I ate out with my stepdad at lunch, I cut my burger in half and only that one half. I stopped eating when I was full, which is a fairly new thing to me. I'm proud of myself today, just not so much yesterday. 

I hope I don't have another day like yesterday anytime soon because I don't think I can take very many of them.